take everything away

rase nak tulis lagi. yea rase nak buang masa yang sikit ny lagi. ape punya orang laa. ok I promise this will be my last entry until final. I won't update blog anymore until 5th February.

just now I browse through old junk. read some stuffs and I smiled. I think and I laugh. how embarrassing everything is. hahaha. I read my old post. ade rase macam nak draft-kan but I guess there's too much draft for my blog. daripada 88 stories I wrote only berape je I really post. and guess what, I read every draft and a few special posts again. my lips continue smiling. :)

I can't really tell what's on my mind. It's still a secret. those memories are good. lovely. how the childish, immature me make friends, quarrel, get into miserable heart depression. yeah not to mention the love story. hahaha. how time flies real fast that everything is in the past. how I never realise that I've lost the past. they are stories now. to be told to my descendent. hahahha. as if... never mind as long as everything is here.

luckily all the drafts I really drafted them. there are actually a few stories that I'm giving a thought whether to delete it or just keep it here. I guess no one will read my whole blog like I did so I let them go. I can't erase them cause after all they are quite meaningful.

haih, I'll just write till here. only got little time until my final days. must study real hard. pray for me. I miss that special star of my life. :)



p/s there's one picture that I haven't take a peek for a long time and I don't have the courage to look at it. maybe when the time comes I'll get the strength. how about you?

it's untitled

by NOT telling a person you need them is as if you are telling them you DON'T need them

so just tell everything to the precious person how precious they are

cause the moment they went away will be the moment regretted the most

sometimes we have to let go after we try our best to hold on to

did you guys hold on to the one you like?

don't ever let go without any try

my brightest star is still shining and I'm watching from far

just don't lose your light

I'll be lost

:)

p/s cube ckp kau suke lagu ape.aku rindu

mari rasa gembira!!

happy birthday asnawi!! I love you soo, soo much. rindu nk cium2, peluk2 adik :) tunggu angah balik ok. adik da 8 tahun. da besar. angah nak adik kecik. tak nak yang besar. hahaha. nanti angah balik angah bawak hadiah best2 untuk adik. tak boleh kasi orang lain. angah da tak sabar nak balik malaysia. adik gemok tengah berzapin. hahaha. saya sayang awak sangat2 :)

tak sabar nak balik malaysia? belajar rajin2 naily!!! baru boleh balik. arghhhhhh pemalas sangat..takpe kene gembira. haahaha. sian adik kene jawab fon pukul6 pagi. lalok2 tengah tdo lagi mama kejut suruh cakap ngan angah. waaaaaa nak balik sangat2 ny.

sabar2. tak lama lagi :) sementara tu jom tidur. sebab dah malam.

ayat aku tunggang langgang. tak faham jangan baca. :p


alahai haritu time birthday abah n amir tak ade wireless, so tak dapat buat pos.maaf yea. kite buat untuk tahun 2010 :)

I'm done with it

at last!!! truly, deeply happy. suda senang hati!! I'm done with it and for now I've to focus to other things. Hope I'll reach the target cause something awaiting at the end of this road. :)

today, I get one present from a someone and it means a lot. like really a lot. thanks for that. I love you much. nak tawu how much me like that thing? tidur pon bawak sekali.pandang je tersenyum2 sorang2. macam crazy kan. hahaha. I don't care sebab memang sangat nak. hope that everything yang I want to do will ease a bit.

err ouh this year new year. even we've done celebrating maal hijrah, 1st january still means something. that day teringat celebration tahun lepas. act I've totally forgot tapi bile diingatkan, rase agak touching. hahaha. so,lupakan. this year is fun. we went out eating and pusing2 mansoura (ini exaggerate)

xtahu nak tulis apa lagi. but hopefully this year will be a better year,, much more better than the past. I really want to leave the past behind. tapi untuk lupakan semua, I won't do that sebab pengalaman mematangkan dan pengalaman laa yang mengubah kita jadi manusia yang lebih baek. if I didn't experience all this, I won't see the reality. live in a dream will bring you no where.

beza mereka dan kau

nak tahu apa beza mereka dan kau?

mereka bersederhana dalam segala aspek.kau?

mereka tidak mengambil kesempatan atas kebaikan orang.kau?

mereka tidak palsu.kau?

mereka tidak berpura-pura.kau?

dan sekarang kau mempersoalkan?

adakah kau memang tak pernah sedar bahawa itu sememangnya mereka sejak dahulu.

tidak dilambung ombak.

tidak mengikut musim.

mereka sejati.

tanya diri kau adakah kau terlebih?atau terkurang.

siapalah aku untuk menilai kau.

tapi kau juga bukan siapa-siapa untuk menilai aku dan mereka.

jangan terlalu bangga dengan apa yang kau ada.

jangan telebih puas dengan nikmat yang banyak.

aku dah rasa sakit dan perit.

tapi kalau kau mahu merasa juga,

silakan.aku tiada halangan!

tak payah baca.takde kena mengena dgn sape2!!

ketandusan idea tapi saya masih mahu menaip.tangan berjalan ikut kata hati.exam makin dekat tapi hati berlalu pergi.tak tahu pergi ke mana.2009 bakal berlalu.apa yang aku dah dapat capai?nak sesali tahun itu?takkan sama sekali.aku RINDU!!rindu sangat-sangat.tapi tak tahu pada apa,siapa dan kenapa.aku benci rasa ini.benci sangat.aku rasa seperti diri aku terlalu lemah sampai tak mampu bertahan dengan ujian yang baru seberat zarah.aku rasa hina sangat.aku tak tahu apa yang aku mahu.aku tamak sangat-sangat!

tak tahu siapa yang boleh dengar luahan hati aku.yea aku yakin pada Allah.tapi aku masih perlu teman.aku belum cukup sempurna dan masih lagi lemah.terkadang rasa biarlah umurku kurang sedikit panjangnya tapi aku penuh dosa.buat apa mati kalau lebih terseksa.entah laa.aku tahu tak elok mengeluh.tapi dah memang manusia macam ni.tak pernah puas.penuh dengan keluh kesah.ape yang aku tengah fikir ni?hari aku gelap,sunyi,kosong.sokosong hati aku.

rupanya selama ni da puas aku dapat cahaya.da puas aku kecap kemanisan kasih sayang.Dia dah bagi semua kat aku.dan sebab semua tu,aku jadi lupa,aku lalai,aku alpa.bila semua dah tak ada.aku terkapai-kapai sorang-sorang.terumbang-ambing dibawa ombak laut yang ganas.padahal aku atas sampan je.mungkin aku akan mati lemas.tapi aku akan cuba untuk kuat.aku sayang tahun lama tapi dah masuk tahun baru.sampan aku kena kuat.arus gelombang makin ganas.bantu lah aku!

dream guy ever!!

the one who would stay by you to wipe your tears

the one who are still there even you ask them to leave

the one who fill your heart with fondness

the one who care the most when you are sick

the one who expressed feeling

the one who spend time without feeling bored

the one who accept you for the way you are

the one who can guide you

and most important

the one who love for the sake of Allah not beauty that may fade

this maybe an infinite list and every girls dream of different guy.okehh I admit that this is my list.so just don't read if you are not into me.hahaha.but for me,the most important thing in marriage,love or what so ever 'kasih sayang' that exist,love toward Allah must be everyone's priority.if we love for the sake of anything else that may fade,we will never love infinitely.so be wise and think before you love.loosing a person is a big smash if you put all your hopes,believes and loves beneath Allah.


p/s waiting for the dreamed guy :)

tick tock

yeahhh clock is ticking.final exam is getting near and near.I'm scared to death.the passion of wanting to score high engulf me.broadband is too limited so no connection for now.I'll be away!!far,far away. :) sayonara